This update took four days to write in draft. That’s because every time I thought I’d finished my update, something would happen or I’d remember something else that I forgot to add. So I decided to write it as if it were three daily diary entries.
Friday 2nd Feb
Despite dying of a throat infection and migraines, this week has been rather good. Well, not good, but not bad, either.
I left college early on Wednesday because I felt so ill and on Thursday it hurt to move so I didn’t go in at all.
However, mentally, I feel better… still emotionally and psychologically tired… but more positive than last week.
I felt a little lost and bored as I couldn’t e-mail Lucas, however not being at college meant I avoided being teased by Rebecca… don’t ask!
Claire has been easier to live with this week. While I was updating you all on Monday, she was being visited by her new Health Visitor who managed to convince her to change a few things. Claire is looking at cutting down the amount of hours she works and has started enforcing daily routines on Blake… which are already starting to work!
I have lost another 1lb at Slimming World. That is a total weight loss of 6lbs so far. Hopefully when I go again on Monday, I’ll have lost more. I’m starting to feel really positive – one day I’ll be slim and beautiful.
I cancelled Tracey’s visit, tonight. Thing is, I love Tracey to bits, but we have nothing in common anymore. We’ve grown apart over the last five years. She works, loves football, has a boyfriend and loves Charmed. I’m single, love music, hate sport and am still at college. We only see each other for two hours every fortnight… but it’s very strained. It’s like we only see each other out of silent obligation as we’ve known each other forever… literally.
After my update of Monday, I went home and wrote on my bedroom wall with permanent marker. One message says ‘I WANT NICE DREAMS’ with an arrow pointing at the side of the bed I sleep on. The other says ‘WE’RE ALL FUCKED UP – EMBRACE YOUR INSANITY!’ I thought my mother would go ape when she saw them but she just laughed. Claire worked, mum worked and Lucy went to bed early, so I made myself a nice ‘Lemon Zester’ cup of tea and watched ‘War Of The Worlds’ for the second time in a week! I think I have a crush on Justin Chatwin (‘Robbie’… the son in the film). I then got an early night.
Saturday 3rd Feb
I was woken at 6am by a phone call. It was my mother telling me that Claire was at the hospital. I’d heard her get home from work and my first thought was ‘Shit. Something happened and I didn’t hear her!’ But it turned out that she was fine… it was her new boyfriend (John, the 45 year old) who was the injured one.
All we knew is that he’d been attacked by a gang of youths in Pudsey centre and he’d needed an emergency operation on his head to remove a blood clot.
By mi-morning I was at John’s house, waiting for the police to come and help me look for the shirt he’d been wearing as it was officially evidence.
As I waited for the police to arrive John’s son, Nigel, turned up. I had to tell him that his dad was seriously ill in hospital after being attacked. Imagine – getting home to be greeted by a total stranger who is the sister of your dad’s 20 year old girlfriend and be told that your dad was seriously ill!
A few minutes later, the police arrived… at the same time as John’s daughter, Janet… who also didn’t know!
After finding the bath full of stale vomit and blood, the blood and vomit covered shirt and a blood covered towel, the policeman told us what had happened.
CCTV footage had shown a gang of 18-19 year olds approach John outside the Natwest Bank. After what appeared to be a heated discussion, one of the lads produced a plank of wood and hit John around the head, knocking him to the ground. He was then beaten by all the lads using the plank of wood, their fists and feet… his back and head receiving the worst of it! He then managed to drag himself home – a distance of about a mile. Once there the pain and seriousness of his injuries overwhelmed him and he was bleeding and vomiting all over himself and the bathroom. He then phoned my sister for help. When Claire arrived, his head had started to swell so she called for an ambulance and cared for him until it arrived. At the hospital he lost consciousness and was rushed for an emergency operation to remove the blood clot that had caused the side of his head to swell to the size of a melon. When he came round, he was told that if he hadn’t called Claire, and if she hadn’t acted and cared for him as she did, he’d have been dead!
The corner of Pudsey where it happened has been cordoned off so that forensics and SOCO could investigate it. They also cordoned off his bathroom.
The policeman who told us what had happened also said that the attack was so brutal that they couldn’t even watch all the CCTV footage in one go. It was so violent of an attack that they had to watch a minute, take a break, watch another minute, take a break again… and so on until they’d seen it all!
It later transpired that the reason the gang chose him, and were prepared with the wood, was because John had seen one of them beating someone up, minutes earlier, and called him an ‘evil knobhead’.
Claire told us that when his family arrived at the hospital to see him, Nigel passed out with the shock and the horror of seeing his dad’s injuries as well as the scar on his head from the operation. Janet and John’s ex-wife refused to go into the ward and see him as they said his injuries made them ‘feel sick’.
Janet ignored Claire, totally… and earlier, at the house, she had ignored me too. John’s ex-wife only spoke to Claire to ask for her version of events. Nigel, however, thanked Claire for saving his dad’s life and had thanked me, earlier, for being there to tell him and help the police. John also thanked Claire for saving his life.
Claire has gone from being a bitch to being a lifesaver!
Mum went out for a meal with her friend, Michele. Claire went to the pub to inform John’s mates what had happened. Me and Lucy sat and watched ‘Notting Hill’.
This day seemed to go on forever!
Sunday 4th Feb
Today was actually really quiet. Well, not ‘quiet’ as in noise… ‘quiet’ as in calm. It was very noisy, however. Imagine being woken at 9am by your neighbours drilling, hammering and sawing as they knock down the outhouse to make way for an extension… on a SUNDAY MORNING!
Whatever happened to ‘Sunday is a day of rest’?
As well as that… and the throat infection I’ve had since Wednesday, that disappeared yesterday, was back with a vengeance.
Mum and Lucy decided to do an early spring clean in the living room and kitchen. Lots of music, singing and dancing as me and Claire sat and took the piss out of them!
I get paid, tomorrow. A whole £70 to last me a fortnight! *Sarcastic cheer* I have to ensure I can afford 2 Slimming World meetings, Claire’s belated birthday present, Lucy’s birthday present, college, a few personal necessities and the new Fall Out Boy album! Thank fuck I don’t have to worry about Valentines Day!
I went to use my neighbours’ computer, but after reading only three e-mails by people I don’t know, the damn thing crashed and wouldn’t let me back onto the Internet!
I remember some of the questions from the e-mails. They came from people on here who have read my LJ entries and decided to e-mail me rather than post on my entries. So, whoever you are – please don’t e-mail me directly as I prefer to only be contacted by people I know and personally gave the e-mail address to. Either add me as a friend or post on my LJ… I will reply to you!
However, I will also reply to the questions I remember from the e-mails.
Q) Who are you?
A) My name is Lynnette Sarah Myers. I am known as ‘Lynn’, but I love my middle name, ‘Sarah’. However, only Lucas uses ‘Sarah’. So call me ‘Lynn’. I am 23 and a half (never forget the ‘half’… it’s always important until you hit 30… then you try to pretend you’re younger). I am from Pudsey which is a small town in Leeds (UK). I live with my mother, two sisters and nephew. I have one cat, Chloe, and two fish, Bob1 and Bob2. I am currently a full time student studying advanced ICT at Leeds Thomas Danby College. I am a major music fan. My favourite bands are Linkin Park, Good Charlotte, Avenged Sevenfold, Fall Out Boy, Panic! At The Disco, My Chemical Romance and Bullet For My Valentine. I love many more bands, too… and I have a soft spot for Hilary Duff. I’m bisexual and my favourite female celebrities are Hilary Duff, Katherine Moennig and Kerry Katona. I suffer 'severe depression with suicidal and self harm tendencies, panic attacks, anxiety and agoraphobia' according to my psychiatrist. I have a very sarcastic, sick, dry and strange sense of humour. I think that’s about it.
Q) Who are the people you talked about in your last entry?
A) Mum – pretty self explanatory.
Claire – 20 year old sister.
Lucy – 14 year old sister (well… almost 14).
Blake – 15 month old nephew.
Graham – my late brother. He would have been 22, now, but died aged 17.
Gill – 31 year old cousin.
Bec, Deccy, Sarah and Hayley – my best online friends. We started chatting about 4 years ago, back in the old days when ‘LPFiction’ was still ‘FanFictionLog’. Remember that, girls? Red (reddishness) was one of us, too. I didn’t mention her as we weren’t in contact for ages until last week. Welcome back, Red!
Lucas – my best friend who is real. Real as in… I can see him in the flesh! He’s in my college class. We tend to e-mail each other during lessons, even though he’s usually sitting just there *points to other side of room* or, like right now, sat there *points to Lucas sitting beside me*. He’s awesome!
Q) Why not just call Lucas your boyfriend?
A) Cause he isn’t! Simple as! I wouldn’t ever inflict that horror on him!
Q) Why did you want to kill yourself? Things didn’t seem that bad!
A) I left a lot of the details out. There is so much going on that to type it all would take months. I simplified it. Plus, things are always worse when you live the reality.
Q) Will you marry me?
A) Err... no.
Monday 5th Feb
Nice to be back at college… even if I do still feel like shit!
Great to see Lucas… but horrible to discover we’d been blocked from the Internet for about 2 hours… so we had to actually TALK to each other. It was weird hearing him speak and hearing my own voice, too. We’re used to e-mailing!
We finally got the Internet back and started e-mailing each other… then I discovered another horror!
MY COLLEGE HAVE BLOCKED ACCESS TO LIVEJOURNAL!
*Hyperventilates*
I think I’ll have to smile at either Deccy or Lucas and see if one of them can post my LJ entries if I send the full entry to them with my Username and Password. I trust them both, so I’ll have to see what they say!
I got to Slimming World, tonight, and discovered that I’ve lost a further 1½ lbs. I have reached my first ‘half stone’! I’m so pleased!
Ok, I think this entry is long enough, so I’ll shut up, now!
Sorry about that and I love you all!
*Throws confetti around and skips out of room*
Ciao for now!
Lynnie.
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